A DAY WELL LIVED

January 30 has been special in many ways.

So many years that this date has been observed in the many ways. Two things have stood coincidentally constant – 1) Gandhiji’s Death Anniversary and 2) My Birth Anniversary.

One is observed and the other is celebrated.

There has been no twist in the story so far.

But initially I had lived with the juxtaposition of sharing a connection with the Mahatma who breathed his last by chanting ‘Hey Ram’.

Thirty years later after the Mahatma was assassinated, arrived me on the same day.

My early days of being ‘A very different me’ proved that I was not an incarnation of the great soul who had taken extreme steps to make us taste salt, inspire us to embrace satyagraha and denounce a non-cooperation movement launched by his own self. I was the extreme opposite - violently rebellious, selfishly adamant and fatally vocal. But still there was a common element that existed between the departed and the arrived. In love with India, was him. And in love with India still, I am.

Like a fleet of flamingos traversing across continents, the years of my life kept flying away. And finally arrived today – Five years added to three decades of being vociferous. Surrounded by so much that I am yet to come to terms with the surprises that came my way.

But I wish to dedicate this day to my maa, my both mamas, my both mami maas, my siblings, my better half, my in-laws and to my universe of loving friends. Everybody made it a point to wish me in their own ways. Gifts do come the way of a Birthday Guy. But the big difference is brought by three important elements – 1) Blessings of elders, 2) Love of beloved, 3) Wishes of world.

I am the same ‘me’ who had once self-turned life into an accident. And I am the same ‘me’ who is poised to take a new turn. I desire to consider nothing as ordinary but tag everything and everyone around me as EXTRAORDINARY. To be honest, I am a little selfishly proud of my memory. Though I am in no mood to boast about my own self. But I want to assure that I forget nothing in life. From the day, I started understanding things; everything has just remained unchangeably with me – Friends, Hobbies, Mischief, Crushes, Crashes, Journeys, Destinations, Dreams, Desires, Imaginations… Nothing have I forgotten. At times, I might not call someone for months, years and ages. But that human being and every moment spent with remains etched in my memory.

Innocent I am not. I too have my own faults. And I will never want to keep them veiled. Being as human as others, I have been at my level best to misunderstand, hurt, criticize and ignore many a souls. At the same time, being human I wish to apologize to everyone in every way possible for being so indifferent.

My biggest disadvantages have been my bitterness, selfishness and my habit of holding on to the past. But having come so far, I wish to learn some new lessons. Because as human beings, the day we stop learning; knowledge dies harshly. Being a writer at heart and passionate by deeds, the death of knowledge will leave me thirsty forever.

Therefore in the midst of all the invisible battles that I have been fighting against time and so much more, I decided to take a pause… look back and say, “Hey why not live well for once”.

And thus arrived January 30. And so did the coincidence recur of a nation observing the loss of a great soul and an entire universe of family & friends conveying their wish to me. The day that started on a note of worldly surprises, I shed my inhibitions to see to it that I live this day to the fullest. With everyone I smiled. And to every phone call, I replied. So that on this day that is today (January 30), I make a new beginning of being more responsible towards every action and reaction of mine.

My apologies to those whom I have hurt and still keep hurting. And my love to all who have made me believe in the power of love… I just wish to say ‘A BIG THANK YOU’. So beautiful was the experience of this day that I grew a younger more, to call it – A DAY WELL LIVED!

-vociferous

THE REAL STORY

On a new note of re-beginning and retelling, many might want to know if at all I believed in the prophecies of the world ceasing to exist on December 21, 2012. To be precise, I didn’t! Not before, I had reposted on my blog. Did I miss updating it? I did. Did I manage to get rightfully inspired? I did. So much has happened over these last five months. Rise, fall, debacle, devastations, evolution, diminution and so much more to make me feel at unease with life. For a moment, I had sacrificed the thoughts of continuing to blog. Three things that kept me going strongly were – reading, writing and being loved. But two thoughts kept me thinking vividly – frustration and facilitation. Silently yet vociferously, I survived. I kept the grit alive to come back to write – THE REAL STORY.

It was on September 22, 2005 at exactly 22:45 hours that I filed my first post under my personal blog - http://bengalsurprise.blogspot.in/; I never knew the kind of relationship that I was getting into. Irresistible was my lust for seamless writing. Between many professional heartbreaks and personal displeasures, it was a decision to hop on to the then called bandwagon of starting to blog. Right from its inception, I wanted to set a dark context for my blog. I was never bothered about opinions. I was only driven by the preying quality of this epidemic to start my very own blog. Being a sinner myself, I could have never thought of preaching. Being insane myself, I could have never agreed with my brutal conscience to write sanely. Not a saint and so much more of a shaitan, I had to make a head start somewhere, someday!

THE REAL STORY is not a piece of ode to my salt sprinkled journey of life. Neither is it a sugar coated monologue of my many misadventures. THE REAL STORY is the other side of the real side that I am privy to. THE REAL STORY begins from that point of life when I refused to walk into an office of monotonous schedules. THE REAL STORY begins from the 10^th floor of Maker Chambers 4 where a hair-greased-with-oil Depot Manager turned my life upside down by kicking my ass off to a gallows like destination – Bhiwandi. It was a premium price; I had paid for being honest. THE REAL STORTY is a recap from the first day of being on my first job and reporting to a wrongly-believed-to-be-an-inebriated boss, whom I still consider to be my best boss. I learnt from him, one basic truth of life – LIFE MEY NA BHENC@#@ KABHI KISISE DARNA MAT. I saw him passionately running to an abandoned spot, to capture a moment of rapid action on his camera. That rapid action was of two cobras trying to tangle each other. He walked back valiantly, looked at me and proclaimed – AGAR AISA KUCH MISS KAREGA TOH DUNIYA TUJHE CHUT@#@ BANATI RAHEGI AUR TU CHUT@#@ BANTA RAHEGA. Did I ever look back to him after that incident? Yes, I did till the day he took off to Kuwait; abusing me for not holding a valid Indian passport. His last words to me were – TERE JAISA BARA BEWAQOOF MAINE NAHI DEKHA. His only desire was to take me along to the Middle East. When I asked him why? He had specifically replied – PURU IS THE ONLY ONE WHOM I HAVE EVER KNOWN TO HAVE RUBBED HIS ASS AGAINST ALL ODDS JUST LIKE ME, ALMOST LIKE A REAL BROTHER OF MINE.

I moved on. The illicit affair with Nariman Point continued. During late evenings, I watched many a young things age in the confines of cars parked motionlessly by the footpaths. During the dead of nights, I realized someone follow me and solicit my attention. The affair only ended when I got whisked away by another destination – Worli. THE REAL STORY’s twist which had waited to arrive finally arrived. I stepped into the big, ad world of limitless desires. Much to the dismay of my father, who had predicted my downfall from the following instances – 1) I was never able to fix a TV antenna, 2) I chose earning a Bachelor of Arts degree over my friends pursuing engineering and science, 3) I showed keen interest in music, movies, moodiness, 4) I kept pushing myself to a corner of my room and taking notes, and 5) I gaped at the TV Commercials, maintained cutouts of print ads and spoke animatedly about advertisement. My heart broke when I earned my first ever appointment with real triumph in advertising and my father left for his heavenly abode. I still remember the day December 1, 2001; he had for the first time spoken something, I can never forget – I TELL EVERYONE ABOUT MY SON BEING IN THIS CRAZY THING CALLED ADVERSITING. HE BUYS BOOKS WORTH THOUSANDS OF RUPEES. AND I STILL DON’T KNOW WHAT HE DOES. I rushed back early in the evening, from my diploma classes in Churchgate, packing all the props and materials required to be presented in the biggest ever viva, which was supposed to earn me the best job in one of the best agencies in India. I arrived home. Beneath my building, I saw an ocean of people waiting for me, not to greet me. But to break an untoward news! As I started ascending on the staircase confused and concerned, a neighbor held me tight and screamed – Be Strong. By the time, I reached my home on the third floor; I felt cheated by destiny and by God. Lying on a clean sheet of cloth was my father; calm and composed. My strong as iron mom, hiding her face behind unknown faces. Whatever I was carrying in my hand, slipped off. I just yelled – Baba. My childhood friend Prashant, my college buddy Nikhil & his family and my whole family stood by me. Eleven years is a long time and yet that feeling of being cheated hasn’t healed. His demise was just the beginning of a series of calamities that followed. Broken, challenged, erased; I embarked on a quest for THE REAL STORY that I wanted to be a part of. Maybe it was his death that helped me unmask the ugly side of Indian politics. A prominent political personality didn’t shy away from issuing a direct threat to me – BAAP MAR GAYA TOH SAMAJH PAISA BHEE GAYA; ZYADA UDEGA TOH TU BHEE JAAYEGA.

Angry, frustrated, heartbroken and derailed; I continued looking for inspiration to fuel THE REAL STORY. The Indian film industry was so far, an alien element. The only source to quench my thirst for creative inspirations, the film industry had its own pros and cons. Work was good, money was bad. Temptations were fierce, after effects were formidable. Never wanting to bid adieu to the illusion of being associated with an industry where I met lyricists, musicians, producers, directors, writers, junior artists, aspirants and the unsuccessful(s); I had to take a tough stand and knock on doors to ask for money. This was just the beginning of my begging days. Sometimes shooed away by a dog and sometimes a door slammed by a familiar personality from the world of television on my face, I ran away looking for answers in the Arabian Sea. I sat on the Marine Drive and continued sitting through late hours. I looked around me, how the world changed. From happy couples to client soliciting professionals, I discovered human stories. For the first time, I saw a woman lift her veil and press a cigarette between her lips. I astoundingly saw her take puffs after puffs. After crushing the butt beneath her feet, she took a few steps towards me then turned back and landed a tight slap on the face of the man who had accompanied her. She hailed for a taxi and disappeared. The man looked back at me, looked around and drove away in his car; only leaving me with an inspiration to culminate into a love story, I wish to go back to and complete writing about two characters – Nayantara and Neelanjan on http://nayantaraandneelanjan.blogspot.in/.

THE REAL STORY is still not what it seems like. It is as lethal and as acidic like that sensation of seeing your heart being set ablaze with a truth, you had never wanted to encounter. Deceived by a person you were once madly in love with. A close friend being chosen over you and to be shattered into pieces by an invitation to the most hated wedding of a lifetime! Once again an inspiration to evolve into something as heart wrenching as the letters, I would love to invoke on http://esotericletters.blogspot.in/.

But THE REAL STORY is far more elusive than just being an illusive replica of the ‘Real Me’ and categorically vociferous. Because it brought me closer to the man, I considered my guru in advertising – Prasoon Joshi. I remember, I had met him once and told him – I AM READY TO SWEEP THE FLOORS OF YOUR OFFICE, PROVIDED YOU GIVE ME ONE OPPORTUNITY. Who can forget the year 2010, when that dream translated into reality and I walked home with not one but two awards and a precious reward! The award was the biggest to come by in the healthcare segment. The idea was the most gigantic to keep up with benchmarks set by other stalwarts in healthcare advertising. The imagination was the most eccentric when approved by one extremely passionate Ryan Menezes. The journey towards success, powered by the video created by someone as talented as Monisha Rana Raj. And someone as talented as Ulka, who believed in my idea, my madness and more over in me to make my dream come true. Not only did she inspire a new episode of THE REAL STORY. But she went ahead in winning over rudeness, indifference, impatience and harshness of someone as intolerable as me.

Having consumed many a combined packages of success and failures later garnished with uncreative endeavors, once again the mind is breathing. Inhaling the aroma of creative freedom once again, I am all set to reemphasize that my passion for writing continues to be alive. I am still as unchained as I used to be when I started my creative journey twelve years back. Inspired by the will power of one important human being in my life, my mother… I never abandoned what I took over. My mother is my friend, my mentor, my motivator and everything to me. So is my better half, imagining and ideating with me incessantly.

THE REAL STORY has no ending. And THE REAL STORY would not have been a story at all, had it not been the presence of friends like Prashant, Swati, Nikhil, Satish (for always pushing me to write more), Rohini (for believing & trusting), Shankari (for motivating) and many others. A separate blog post is required to present the untiring list of friends, who pulled me out of depressing moments.

To (un)conclude, THE REAL STORY re-begins from today. My apologies to those, whom I have either tried deliberately or unknowingly to hurt! My sincere gratitude to my four siblings – Antara, Arpita, Udayan and Nibedita for making me feel sane and more.

On an ending note, but with a fresh breath of re-beginning; all I wish to say – THE REAL STORY is not yet the same; as written and read. THE REAL STORY in reality is a never ending saga of being a virtuous vociferous - UNABASHED AND UNDEFEATED.

-vociferous 

MONSTER OF A MONDAY

I don’t care if ire comes my way.

I don’t care if abuses come my way.

I don’t care if stones come my way.

I really don’t care, if someone really makes a big issue out of what I plan to write in the next few paragraphs. The issues are practical. The complication is of general interest. And if someone begs to differ, I am not going to resist it. Because I am going to dare and bare my feelings about a Monday that I wish should have never followed a Sunday.

It is not a general belief for me but a reality that on Monday mornings, I either tend to get late or get late by default. Obviously being the first day of a working week, I am in a mood to be a part of the rat race and impress all the concerned in office about my punctuality. Frankly speaking, it is a myth. I want to make it to office on time to leave on time and console myself that I finally lived through the Monday.

From Saturday evening, I begin to struggle against the fact that Sunday is round the corner and it will come to an end like a bursting bubble. Therefore I avoid sleeping early on a Sunday night. I refuse the temptation of relaxation. I rebel against the Kingdom of Sleep. I resist the imagination of dreams. Frankly speaking, Monday mornings begin with nightmares. The trains are flooded (and not crowded). People are sweat-bathed and not bathed. There is a stench of pretentious dedication in the first class compartment that I travel in. And the much audible laughter of fellow travelers is just a cover-up of primal fears they hold within for a Monday.

Come Monday and you rush through the office door. A biometric machine eagerly awaits your thumb to touch it. On many occasions, I have tried to tease it with my middle finger. After settling down and having switched on the computer, a military of emails start descending in the inbox. As a note of immense dissatisfaction, I would frankly say that they give out nothing but paint a sad picture of how bleak your morning is and how idiotically you had fared in the last week.

Monday… A colleague says, “I die to come back to office on a Monday”. Possibly because there was nothing interesting left in this world for him to do. Or he has been abandoned by his love interest. Or his parents think, he is good for nothing. Another one comes up with that usual query of – Hey dude, how was your weekend? What did you do on your weekend? Brutal but true, I find these questions extremely stupid. If at all, I have to mention a movie that I liked immensely. The reply will be instant – What a bore movie man, how could you sit through those two hours of agony? To be truthful, he too might have seen the movie and sat through the same two hours, understanding nothing and considering himself an esteemed film critic had decided to write off the maker of the movie.

Monday… Expect the taxi driver to be generous and promise a smooth ride to your office. I am sorry to say, their asses harden up. Their egos are inflated. And it is only on Mondays that they refuse to use a flyover and fantasize getting stuck in a traffic jam to drill a hole into the traveler’s bruised pocket.

Monday… You will find the most unexpected colleague to be present in office on time, who might have never made it on time in the last one week. He will wink at you. He will sport a broad smile; take a sip from his ugly cup of sugarless coffee/tea/urine and ask you the first question you might have dreaded for centuries and deliberately in Hinglish – What boss… weekend bahut dhamaal spend kiya kya? Such idiots should be hanged till death from an electric pole.

Monday… Trains will take you on a teary ride. Be it monsoons or no monsoons, they will run late. The announcer will assure you of a 15 minute delay. But most of us have never been surprised when the train must have arrived exactly 25 minutes late. The crowds will swell. Indiscrimination on grounds of groups, age, sex, caste, creed, color, religion, faith and beliefs will be rampant when the question of offering a seat shall arise. By chance, if you happen to occupy a window seat and kill the prospects of a regular occupant, they will kill you with their words, highly vocal abuses in-directed towards you. At a point of time, you will feel like committing immediate suicide. And the train will take its own sweet time to see to it that you are marked late on arrival in your office.

Monday… You will dress well. But a tobacco chewing Romeo will spit and your attire will resemble a canvas of modern art. You will feel like a loser and vow to never dress well on any other Monday or be it any other day.

Monday… The boss will not cease to take potshots at you. He or She will begin with a curtain raiser to the torment – Remember that day on Friday, you left early and the work got stuck… He or She will remind you of a holiday that you might have availed on a Friday eons ago. He or She will then train their guns on some useless P’s of recent professional jargons – productivity, perfection, precision and practice. He or She will give out a speech on Time Management, Brand Development, Relationships with Client, Pleasing the Seniors and Business Development. And by the time, they end you will find yourself sweating restlessly in the rest room, trying helplessly to deal with a urinary tract infection cause due to the delay caused by His or Her confusingly boring conversation.

Monday… You will miss the whole point.

Monday… The office looks like a graveyard. Actually most of the offices that we travel to are makeshift arrangement. In these makeshift arrangements, the egoists are busy weaving cobwebs of supreme complications. We end up being trapped like a bacterium spreading fly or a paint licking cockroach. These offices are not clean on Mondays because the housekeeping staff might not have arrived on time or they might have been abducted by aliens. The dustbins are unclean and the leftovers of a freaky Friday look up to you and demand – Clean us, Liberate us, Discard us and please Hate us. Secondly the already dull ambience will appear at its dullest best. The mood will be grim or grumpy.

Monday… A meeting will be conducted in the conference room. Some minds will speak. Most minds will mute their rebellion. And some idiots like me will yawn or fantasize about a holiday in Singapore. In the meeting ugly charts will be put up. Another presentation will be made on the scope of work or an ugly head will mess up with some connection and suddenly put up a WIP chart (Work in Progress chart). A serious face will glance at even more serious faces. And a funny face like me will look at no one and doze off in the chair that is offered to me by my immediate colleague.

Mondays… I believe have lost their charm. Ever since timesheets have come into existence and a hire-fire policy have been put up in place, all the Mondays sunk in the deep ocean of sadness. I have myself lost faith in every arriving Monday because none of them have been cheerful. In the last three years, every single time that I have signed the muster, placed the finger on the biometric machine or swiped my card… one dream has died, an imagination has been sacrificed, an idea has disappeared, a passion has escaped.

Can we not go back to the valley of beautiful Mondays? Can we not go back sailing in the stream of balanced schedules? Can we not go back to the village of appreciations? Can we not dream of a better Monday? Can we not fuel the beginning of better Mondays?

But for all that to happen… we need motivations on Monday, magnificence on Monday, melody on Monday. And we don’t want people who will kill the Monday mood by quoting something stupid…

It is hard to believe how Monday has become a monster of recent times. If not anything, I wish to end this blog post by saying – Let’s add a little fun to this Monday and put the bossy remarks behind.

If a Monday is lived well, the rest of the week grows smooth as well.

Wishing you all courage, I invite you to another MONDAY. Survive well.

-vociferous

POSTCARD FROM WASSEYPUR

“Goli nahi marenge saaley ko, kehke lenge uski” - The intellectuals might point a finger to this single dialogue and term it too explicit. Frankly speaking while watching the movie, the same dialogue hits you like a thunderbolt. I stand undivided with my admiration towards GANGS OF WASSEYPUR (GOW). And I am shamelessly biased towards the movie too. Since West Bengal is my native land, stories of coal mines situated around Asansol, Dhanbad and many other places formed the crux of summer vacations spent there. I have myself heard about handmade bombs hurled over minor issues of idol immersions during festivals. So how could I not enjoy GOW?

I have been a huge fan of Anurag Kashyap from the days of him being credited with Saurabh Shukla as the writer of Satya. He continued with his journey and brought us Kaun, Shool and Darna Mana Hai. Later on his partnership with Ram Gopal Varma came to an end. It was like a blow but nonetheless necessary. Anurag Kashyap did not disappear. He stuck around and painted the portrait of a BLACK FRIDAY on the single screen. Just like other truthful movies, this one too met with protests, allegations, sabotage and unreasonable ire. Major newspapers reported about the 1993 blasts accused filing a writ petition against the producers Mid Day and Anurag Kashyap for tampering with evidence. They also managed to stay the release of the movie. But truth be told, BLACK FRIDAY released in the most daredevil way. Once again I was awed by the personas of every character that were detailed, determined and delivered more than the book had on offer. Being one of the maverick torchbearers of meaningful cinema in India, Anurag Kashyap took the liberty of writing and directing NO SMOKING. No one liked it. People blamed him of being self indulgent and too sarcastic. But little did they know that he was just igniting the much needed spark of change.

NO SMOKING flopped badly. It was accepted internationally with immense fervor. But back home, the Indian film industry had grown nastier. As if all of them had vowed to oust Anurag Kashyap from the premise of filmmaking. This was the darkest phase. I remember seeing an interview wherein Anurag had shared how he had literally begged to be given a chance as a scriptwriter. But no one was listening. Being a creative writer myself, and continuing to remain exposed to threats of abolishment; I was extremely moved by the plight of such a talented writer and director. But God is great. Or maybe luck had a better role to play. Situations overturned and Anurag Kashyap came roaring back with GULAAL on his face. Strangely his unapologetic PAANCH remains tanked. But when I watched it on youtube, I was astounded as to what was so drastic about the movie? Was it too much graphical? Was it too erotic than the Poonam Pandeys and Sunny Leones of recent times? Or was it that, a director with a non filmy background had emerged a threat with PAANCH to his credit. The film industry lay low. But Anurag held his head high and gave us DEV D, co-produced UDAAN, directed THE GIRL IN THE YELLOW BOOTS, produced SHAITAN and finally settled down to enthrall us with GOW.

Based on the many articles I read in the media over GOW, I gathered a lot of things about Anurag Kashyap. He is a worshipper of ideas. He reads everything that interests him. This also includes endless editions of Manohar Kahaniyan available at economical rates on every book stall at major railway stations. He champions the cause of fresh talent be given an opportunity to showcase their skills. And he never shies away from being associated with unconventional cinema. The story idea of GOW was presented to Anurag by an aspiring actor Zeishan Quadri, himself a native of Wasseypur (yes..The real place exists in Jharkhand). Zeishan handed over to Anurag an eight page concept note while he was seated at the Prithvi theatres in Juhu. Anurag read the script, took a close look at Zeishan and said to him – I AM GOING TO MAKE THIS FILM. But Zeishan put a condition to his script that he be given a role in the movie. Anurag agreed and countered the condition with another by asking Zeishan to audition for the role he demanded. Zeishan auditioned, bagged the role and will be seen soon in the second part of the movie as a character named ‘Definite’. But it would be ideal to discuss more on that later. At this point it is GOW Part 1.

The opening sequence is extremely engrossing. Who could have imagined that only bullets could have diverted the attention that this nation assigned to the sob opera – Kyunki Saas Bhee Kabhi Bahu Thee? Anurag imagined it and fired the first bullet so powerfully that a winning script was emerging loud and clear on the silver screen. The next 30 minutes after a mansion being showered with bullets engrossed me further as a viewer. It made me and the other audiences travel to the history behind Wasseypur. The reference to Sultana Daku arrived thereafter. Those who are unaware of this legendary dacoit should immediately read Sujit Saraf’s book CONFESSIONS OF SULTANA DAKU, which was released in 2009. At the end of this book, it was beautifully described how Sultana Daku disappeared in thin mist. People got over his presence by saying he was long dead. A British officer remembered him escape. And the popular belief that took shape was – Sultana Daku’s presence was just a myth. Therefore Sultana Daku’s conspicuous absence produced unsung replicas of him. In the British ruled Wasseypur, Sultana was kept alive by two clans – the Qureshis and the Pathans. Trains were looted and a war broke out over who the real Sultana Daku was and if both Sultanas had to operate, one has to part with his booty. A true Pathan could never tolerate such an atrocity. Abolished from his native town, he is forced to take refuge as a coal miner under the supervision of Ramadhir Singh. On a rainy night, the Pathan’s wife delivers a baby boy and dies. The Pathan with little help from his timid brother brings his son up. Ramadhir appoints the Pathan as his personal Pehalwan and one day bumps him off dramatically because he smells a conspiracy.

Before the Pehalwan is taken out of this world, Anurag constructs a well written plan which clearly shows how some people don’t choose to change with changing times. The Pathan’s son Sardar Khan grows up with a shaved head. Sardar Khan is the real story of the hero. But Anurag makes him much more vindictive. Sardar gets married and uses his wife to satisfy every manly urge. Power corrupts his mind. But Anurag keeps Sardar reminded of his primary mission – Kehke loonga. Sardar’s fondness for women is not veiled. He visits brothels but never makes lewd remarks. He eyes a Bengali woman Durga and wins her heart magically. Anurag once again spins the wheel by making Sardar say – Islam humein chaar nikaah karneki ijaazat kyon detaa hai. Arey chaar ghar ka bhala jo hota hai. Aur pataa nahi log kyu iss baat ko lekar itna bawal machaate hai.

A master of narrating a story with great conviction, Anurag makes Sardar juggle between his legally married wife and his illegitimate mistress. Both the women are themselves not naïve enough. Durga holds a certain grunt against Sardar and sets her scores right at the right moment. And Sardar’s real wife is not shy of dropping her guard while sharing a night of passion with his own uncle. Anurag twists the story and makes Sardar father four sons. On the other end Ramadhir keeps playing dirty games. He speaks of seeing ghosts in dreams. He slaps the man, who had once told him that after bumping Sardar’s father he had cut him into pieces and buried him deep. Tighmanshu Dhulia (director of Haasil, Charas, Shagird, Paan Singh Tomar and Saheb Biwi aur Gangster) essays the role of Ramadhir Singh. He competes with the character of Sardar Khan performed with panache by Manoj Bajpayee. Both shine like real diamonds. Ramadhir Singh’s brutality is best explored in the scene where he beats up his own son Jai Prakash Singh and calls him an idiot in front of all. Later on he goes ahead and insults his own son further by asking him to help his mother arrange the table for guests.

Anurag Kashyap puts his fearless self to good work as a director of GOW. He makes Faisal Khan (Nawazuddin Siddiquie) get addicted to the weed. His addiction is the result of being witness to the night of passion Sardar’s wife spends with his uncle. While his elder brother Daanish (actor’s name not known) starts supporting his father’s gang lordship. Faisal is a diehard fan of Amitabh Bachan and Anurag makes him act comically when he suddenly decides to hold the hand of his girlfriend.

Since vengeance is inherited, Anurag introduces more characters. One of them is Sultan Qureshi. A butcher by profession, he strongly resists his sister’s marriage to Sardar Khan’s elder son. In a gem-of-a-dialogue, he warns a copy saying, “This is Wasseypur. In here a pigeon tries to fly with one wing and shields its honor by the other”. He develops an undying distaste for Sardar Khan and vows to finish him.

GOW is not an easy film. It is real. The characters are infectiously believable. In a well written scene, the wife of Sardar Khan is shown busy serving food to the men of the family. She tells them to eat well before they can make out with women somewhere outside so that the honor of being true men is not lost. Anurag cleverly unleashes the sexual undercurrent within the women. The intimate encounters are enjoyable and the female leads do well with their own roles confidently while gracing the bed with their sexual prowess.

There are no lip synched songs to deter the pace of this story. Thankfully Yashpal Sharma plays the best item girl ever of Hindi cinema in this movie. The movie proceeds to a climax of utter bloodbath between the fighting groups. It truly does justice to the proverb – Kehke loonga. The movie ends at the note of an intense shootout at a petrol pump; a caption appears ‘Kahaani abhi baaki hai’ and the credits roll up. After some while the trailer of GOW2 starts playing. Faisal Khan replaces his father Sardar Khan in this part. He is seen wooing his girlfriend. And three new characters wait to be introduced and thoroughly enjoyed in the second part. Have you ever heard of character names of people like DEFINITE, TANGENT AND PERPENDICULAR. Action rolls over even more intensely in the second part. There is more sex in it than there was seduction in the first part.

I travelled back home astounded by the magnanimity assigned to GOW by Anurag Kashyap. This man is an extraordinary thinker. He is to be respected and worshipped. I am thankful to him for having made this movie, which is so fearless right from its onset. I don’t care if the Indian audiences or critics want to pan it. One of my own office colleagues remarked teasingly that Anurag has delivered a dud. I didn’t even feel the need to reply because this colleague of mine is not a writer but an average employee who is just found typing words on his PC. If passion is what needs to be seen in Indian cinema, watch Gangs of Wasseypur (meant strictly for adults). And yes, liking it or not liking it is a matter of choice. At least don’t come out insulting Anurag Kashyap. Remember he has taken great pain to make us travel to Wasseypur and promises to make it even merrier in the second part.

Go watch it and listen to all the songs in full volume.

Bowing my head to Anurag Kashyap, I sign off.

-vociferous

OFFICE IDOL (Idle) – NOT BY CHOICE BUT BY FORCE

No one ever comes to office to sit idle.
No one cultivates passion for work to get accustomed to rework.
No one dresses well to look badly dressed by the end of the day.
No one takes up a job to be threatened by possibilities of rendered jobless suddenly.

Recruitment ads of recent times are extremely misleading. They paint a picture of an environment, which is more of fantasy and less of reality. On the day of the interview a prototype of a happy workplace is presented to an interviewee. Once you are in, you are trapped. All the talks about following the diktat of ‘WE NEVER WORK LATE’ fizzle out. The hope shown in you as the most prospective recruit erode away. And the little that one gets to do possibly is whine to others.

In this case, who is to be blamed? Most definitely the job seeker is to be held by his/her neck. Background check in case of taking up a new job is a tradition; we have made a practice to evade. We are driven by money, location, position and rewards. We are always unaware of the witty politics that goes around in name of professionalism, precision and perfection.

In the recent past, I stood witness to a dangerous situation to the plight of a fellow writer friend. The Project Manager at his office had announced of having bagged a prestigious project, a client now considered the czar of Indian corporate houses. The assignment revolved around creating communication material for a grave issue of recent times. As a general routine, whenever creative work arrives on the desk, the first thing to pop up in the mind is a brief or a concept note. In this case, both were either absent or invisible. The client had given a briefing three months back. But the concerned team of seniors had paid no attention to put in their efforts to create a framework for the work that was expected to be delivered. Hara-kiri was already in making. Fresh recruitments made the situation even worse. In a fit of sudden excitement, these seniors ferried all of these new recruits to the client’s office. They were equipped with some creative communication. The moment, the meeting started, everyone was in for a bumper surprise. The client screamed at the peak of her voice – THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAD EXPECTED YOU TO COME UP WITH. Everyone left the served tea unattended. The biscuits on the table lost their charm. The entire team hurried down the staircase, instead of using the lift. Panting heavily the entire team drove back to office and started recounting the course of events that had left them feeling astounded.

The next meeting was arranged without consulting the team again as to how much time they might require to develop the communication. This time over the client chose to don the role of a ringmaster and asked the entire team to revisit the office. The client knew the team was still unprepared. Therefore she strategized more intelligently. First she expressed her desire to conduct the meeting at 4 pm. After some while, it was postponed to 5.30 pm. By the time, the team had finished their lunch; the client called again at around 1.30 pm. She wanted the entire team to be present in her office by 2 pm. Like toddlers on their first trip to a picnic spot, the team hurried along to the client’s office. Once again, tea, coffee, biscuits and water were served. The laptop sprung to life and images started getting projected on a white screen. On display were posters, logos and website templates. The client neither batted an eyelid nor did she utter a word. After the presentation of 5 and ½ slides came to an end, the client rose from her throne, circled the entire team of starry eyed creative team and yelled – WHAT ARE YOU GUYS UP TO? HAVE YOU MADE UP YOUR MIND TO SCREW ME? She caught hold of the Project Manager of the creative team and asked the trembling soul to list down as to how the team was briefed. For a person whose heart had already sunk in boots, jotting down snippets from an actual brief was nothing less than committing suicide publicly. The truth was that the Project Manager knew nothing about the core concept.

An ultimatum was issued by the client this time over – YOU HAVE 24 HOURS TO PROVE YOU ARE HUMAN BEINGS EQUIPPED WITH A MIND TO THINK, HANDS TO WRITE, ONE PAIR OF EYES TO SEE AND AN INTERNET CONNECTION TO DO INTELLIGENT GOOGLING. What followed thereafter was nothing less than setting out on a Charlie Chaplin kind of an adventure. The entire team without having consumed any of the refreshments served during the meeting drove back to the office. The decision taken this time over was to spend a night in the office to create an award winning communication. Till 12.30 am and having consumed four pizzas in a row, the creative team decided it is advisable to leave and come back to office early in the morning. The new sun of the next day brought everyone back to office not before 11 am because everyone was dead tired. One of the so called Senior Managers took the lead of writing the first few lines. Coincidentally the assigned creative writer to this campaign had already triggered the campaign with a line. But that was ignored. Thousands of words were typed. Millions of ideas were bounced. And by the end of the day, the so called campaign was in place. The entire campaign was mailed to the client. And finally, the client reverted with 10% satisfactory feedback. The other 90% of satisfaction had been left seriously molested on the chair that she still occupies in her dangerously air conditioned office.

Everyone was confident, the ordeal was over. But the real game was to begin now. The creative writer was held responsible for not being supportive. The Senior Manager claimed to have churned out everything that he thought was as-perfect-as-picture. The Project Manager held the creative writer responsible for not being cooperative. The Senior Designer held the creative writer responsible for not being creative.

All the other facts revolving around the discrepancy of being unable to deliver well took a back seat. No one raised a question as to why the Senior Manager chose to fall ill suddenly? No one raised an eyebrow as to why the Senior Designer left for home by 5 pm, the other day after having consumed 4 pizzas in a row? No one raised a doubt over the Project Manager’s sudden outstation trip? But the noose was tightened around the Creative Writer’s neck. The very little that I know of him now and the conversation I had with him two weeks back, he mentioned that he has been sitting idle in his office. I asked him about what happened of being the most prospective employee of the organization? With a hint of irony in his voice, he clearly mentioned that the prospects were flushed out after one week when a client shamelessly blamed him of not being a desired professional. The truth is that the client had never checked the corrected content, this creative writer had mailed across.

As a result, the Creative Writer is left with no option in his hand but to sit idle. If he takes a newspaper out of his bag to kill the idleness that he is caught up with, a gun is held on his forehead and a bullet of man hours is brutally drilled into it.

The moral of the story is simple. Never trust those who paint a picture of what LIES in stock in the form of being a most desirable workplace. But trust those who try to build excitement around the work that you are supposed to do. And if someone says you are the next big Office Idol. Try to do a background check as to how they spell idol – IDOL or IDLE???

-vociferous

BACK ON/OFF THE TRACK

I am not a parasite. At the same time, I refuse to be counted amongst the socialites. My identity, my interests, my hobbies and my hesitations belong to me. There is nothing particular or peculiar about me except the fact that I am a creative writer. A writer, who is passionate about life, loves to dream, eat, laugh and travel extensively. And I haven’t yet developed distaste for what I do as a job, as a commitment, as a responsibility and as a breadwinner.

At this moment, what really matters is my presence after a long hiatus. Some might mask the reality by claiming to be bouncing out of hibernation. But I can’t pretend and neither can I lie. Either I myself or my body language shall give out the nude truth – up, loud and volatile. I was on leave for a good span of three weeks. How far it was relaxing is my lookout. How far it was enjoyable is what the world seems to be curious about. The reason definitely was super personal. People are still complaining for not having received invitations. Frankly speaking, I remain unaffected.

The state of mind that I am in, is nonetheless closer to the plight of the protagonist Chuck Noland (beautifully brought alive on screen by Tom Hanks) in Cast Away (released in 2000). All the impending work seems to have been completed. There is no trace of stress in the office. Ugly jokes are being cracked. Some unthinkable categorizations and segregations are fatally visible. Some laughable rules have been implemented. And some unthinkable stringencies promise to be making life of a creative writer even more difficult. It is worth mentioning that facebook also has been blocked to increase productivity, deliverance and of course results. Surrounded by vibrant walls and colorful colleagues, it is worth thinking if taking a leave is lethal or legal!

The level of being lethal or legal stands undefined. In India right from the day you request a leave on basis of a wedding, birth, death, health, work etc; the perceptions towards you stand unaffected. It is the phase after you are back from leave that you realize the world has suddenly changed. The first to hit you straight on your face are your immediate colleagues. They will make you realize time and again as to how during your absence, it was their presence which saved the world from drowning deep in a shithole. Thereafter come the subordinates, the human resource ambassadors and of course the so called superior you report to. The superior is the most interesting character. He or She makes an appearance once in a day. He or She peeps in like a squirrel into the cubicle that we think is our own private world. A smirk on their otherwise avoidable face makes you realize how big of a criminal you are for being on leave. And then arrives a long phase of silence.

The phase of silence is most loved. No work arrives on your desk. To kill time most commit the mistake of checking through the many emails one might have missed checking during the absence. This heinous error should seriously be avoided. In the many emails that one might have missed checking, at least five to seven of them will be forwards of what the clients might have sent for not having met the deadlines. No matter how hard you bang your head on the wall, it won’t break. It is necessary to be remembered that these walls are not just made of bricks, concrete and steel. On the contrary these walls stand strengthened by layers and layers of misunderstandings, gossips, rumors and of course taller than ‘Eiffel tower of Paris’ egos.

At the end of the day, with no work coming your way and staring blankly at the Adam aged desktop monitor most wonder – what made you come back from the leave? Some have the tendency of rushing towards and asking how was the first day after a long leave? Is everything really fine? How does it feel to be bombarded by deadlines? Has anyone informed of a fellow colleague having put down the papers and is life getting back on track? It is only a case with Creative Writers that they wish, they could have explained – LIFE IS NOT BACK ON TRACK BUT THROWN OFF THE TRACK.

-vociferous

Statutory Warning: The produced piece is a work of fiction and is not inspired or influenced by real events. It is neither written out of frustration nor depicted in an irritated tone. It is just a state-of-mind, which needed a wordy justice and I seriously think I haven’t failed in carrying it out to a readable extent.

A STORY OF A SLEEPLESS NIGHT

November 26, 2008 could have ended as just another day of my life, had I not read the headlines flashed at the bottom of every news channel. I clearly remember having come home a little late, settling down for dinner with my mother and making a comment, “I believe the underworld has struck again. The outrage is on road for certain”

My mother was startled and agreed with me on the same. But after thirty minutes we were forced to rethink. Something that seemed to be normal had the connotations of being insanely abnormal. All of a sudden, we felt as if the news channels were expressing their concerns over some miscreants at large. I once again felt that the top gang lords might have decided to strike their rivals from different parts of the city. But what surprised me was their preference of locations. It was reported that two assailants had opened fire at the Chatrapati Shivaji Terminus. Reports of firings at Leopold Café, The Oberoi Trident, Taj Mahal Palace & Tower, Nariman House and Cama Hospital started pouring in. I couldn’t bring myself to believe what seemed to me like rumors. But as the clock kept ticking, I found it difficult to remain aloof. I murmured, “Our city is under attack. The nation is under direct threat”

I couldn’t move. I lost interest in continuing with my dinner. The mention of Taj reminded me of something. One of my friends was associated with the Taj and so were his father and younger brother. I fished out his number but failed to establish any connection. After two hours of constant trials, I finally could reach his younger brother’s mobile. He left me in a state of shock by declaring that my friend was stuck inside the hotel. I couldn’t believe my ears and started praying. Later I felt pacified to know that he was alive but a bit shaken. The commandos had managed to bring him out of the hotel.

In the meanwhile, the news about Mumbai being under terror attack had already spread like wild fire in a jungle of dry woods. Three of the most renowned police officers were dead. I just couldn’t tolerate the insignificant treatment being administered to the situation. My mom asked me to sleep as it was too late. She rightly said that maybe it would be all over by the next day. I couldn’t agree more with her. But I definitely knew that it was not going to be a day to be easily forgotten. I either smsed or called up my friends to affirm their locations because they were all supposed to be at the terrorist attacked places.

I wanted to desperately start writing about the day in my diary. The terrifying face of a gun brandishing terrorist at the Chatraptati Shivaji Terminus, a video grab of dead bodies being brought out of the Taj and the breaking news of Hemant Karkare, Vijay Salaskar and Ashok Kamte’s death simply made me feel restless. I shunned everything around me and sat staring at my television. The screen looked so stark. I wanted to reach out to the many victims of the brutal assaults. I decided to stay awake all night. Extremely pained by the situation, I called up some of my closest of friends and relatives to know what they were doing at that moment. Every voice on the other end of the phone sounded aggrieved. I was angry. I just kept moving corner to corner in my drawing room. The television was getting starker and the news darker. I knew I had to attend office the other day. But it was my city, my birth place and my motherland that was under attack.

I stood at my gallery and looked at the sky above. Nothing seemed to be normal. The eerie silence of the night failed to impress me. Time and again, I kept looking at the television to just see devastation all around. The color of human blood, the chaos of inhuman tendencies and the chutzpah of fanatics had started taking its toll on me. At that moment, I was not in a position to make any opinion against any particular person, nation, religion or community. My concern was about the safety of mankind. Being a trotter across the city, every place that was mentioned of being attacked by terrorists left me feeling shattered. Even though my mom was asleep, she woke up too. At around 12.18 am, we both positioned ourselves in front of the television and never left the place. We were not watching a movie. We were not seeking entertainment. We were not being indifferent. But we had tears in our eyes. One question that kept bothering us was – WHY MUMBAI?

The question that kept bothering us had no definitive reply. Just like other onlookers and viewers, the restless duo of mother and son was also dealing with its own share of confusion. Every time I entered the kitchen to quench my thirst with water, my mother kept telling me of something new that might have popped up as a part of the ‘MUMBAI UNDER SEIGE’ reportage.

The experience couldn’t be forgotten so easily. Even today when I recollect that night, I realize how tremendously bitter I had felt from within. Not for a second had I batted an eyelid and neither had I expected a good beginning of the next day. All I can say at this moment is that I had for the first ever time experienced the most violently sleepless night of my lifetime. God bless the many souls, which didn’t deserve such a gruesomely unforeseen end. I truly love Mumbai, which has over the years helped me earn my bread and butter. I wish not to hate anybody but always sit praying that there is never a repeat run of November 26, 2008.

-vociferous

THOSE WHO MATTER/ THOSE WHO DON’T

Today at around 8:30 pm, on my super smart phone flashed a message – ONCE WE WERE FRIENDS, NOW TELL ME WHO I AM? Over the last few years, I have fallen prey to the addiction of changing my mobile handsets a bit too often. I am not a tech savvy person. But gadgets entice me. If the price suits me, I invest. If it doesn’t, I ignore. In case of mobile phones, whenever I have opted for a new one; I have randomly ended up deleting somewhat vital and somewhat ignorable numbers. This has resulted in two big problems: THE IGNORED BECAME IMPORTANT, THE IMPORTANT GOT IGNORED. Therefore I have somewhat started hating this ritual of shopping for brand new mobile phones. But the question remains – Who matters? Who Doesn't?

Such messages make me press the panic button. Do I ever know it might be a friend who needs me? Do I ever know it might be a foe who hates me? Some of them are intelligent enough to play mind games. I know of a certain breed, which begins by saying – LONG AGO WE USED TO CHAT SO OFTEN, I AM SURPRISED YOU DON’T REMEMBER ME ANY MORE. First and foremost the biggest confusion that arises is of the gender. I can never make out whether the sender is a male, female or a super power. Thereafter follows a vague memory – YOU WORE A WHITE SHIRT AND WERE FROWNING OVER A STAIN LEFT BY THE SAUCE I ACCIDENTALLY DROPPED OVER IT. I STILL FEEL SORRY. I am rendered speechless yet get no clue to who it is.

Sometimes I think if they really matter. Sometimes I think they do matter. I remember during many such exchanges, happiness has arrived from unknown quarters. I had expected them to be just a short lived moment, but they transformed into a lifelong beauty. I remember a similar incident taking place at around 3 am, deep in the dead of night and an eager morning on the brink. My mobile flashed two words – KNOCK, KNOCK. The sender of this message had perhaps forgotten to mention its name. When I enquired about the identity, a second message arrived and leaving me pleasantly surprised. But till date those two words have remained very important for me – KNOCK, KNOCK. These two words marked the beginning of a friendship that will never ever die. These two words marked the beginning of my reinstatement of faith, belief and trust in destiny. The sender was not just a human being but turned out to be a strong inspiration, a determined motivator and a generator of positive vibes.

It is moments as such when I again don the Thinking Cap and analyze – WHO MATTER? WHO DON’T? Another instance involved a man from down south India. The first message he had sent was of I LOVE YOU. Show me one man on this earth who won’t get thrilled unless it is a case of gender confusion and physical dissatisfaction! Excited, thrilled and curious, I dialed the number to know who this big fan of me was. Nothing could have been as heartbreaking as the information that poured in. When I dialed, the phone was answered on the last ring. I could clearly hear a hefty voice speaking in a heavy accent – KYA JEE, TUM KYA BOLA, NO HINDI, and ONLY KANNADA PLEASE. I probed further to be only informed that the mobile number belonged to a lowest graded police constable attached to a remote village based in Bangalore. He further clarified in broken Hindi and overcomplicated English that it was his brother-in-law who had decided to stay the night over with his family. To be believed/disbelieved, this sample piece pressed some keys which seemed to be preset defaults for customized sms’. As a result of which, three different people had been at the receiving end of – I LOVE YOUs. But what I still haven’t figured out, how did my number get chosen?

I could have easily freaked out but then couldn’t blame the police constable, who went to the extent of saying he was a very poorly paid man. On one hand, I was irritated and on the other hand, I was feeling a bit too sad about an honest constable thriving on limited resources. But my biggest turn off were those three words – I LOVE YOU. Did they really matter to me at the end of it? No! For the simple reason being, it was an accident.

Ten years have slipped away and I have so far repeatedly changed my mobile handsets. But at the end of it, the only issue that continues to linger – I ATTEND AND ADDRESS ONLY THOSE WHO MATTER. I IGNORE THOSE WHO DON’T.

-vociferous

A TRIBUTE TO THIRTEEN YEARS OF MY OVERREACTIONS

Till date I chose to maintain it as my best kept secret. I had discussed this idea with a select few and was waiting for the right time to finally begin. I resorted to soft skills of doing some PR activity for the same. I also spent a good amount of personal indulgence in creating the prelude. I continued procrastinating. I still console myself and might continue to do so in the forthcoming days talking to myself, “Maybe the moment has not arrived.”

But the moment has arrived to help me evolve. I am still not in a position to put a date or time to it; I am but excited to begin with it. The long cherished dream needs to come true. Thirteen years of my colorful experiences need to find a voice. I therefore have decided to finally put all my research together and start writing my first ever book. The title is very much in my mind. It is as selfish as me. It is as self-centered as my thoughts are. It is as arrogant as my appearance. It is as rude as my regular routines.

I don’t deem it an impulsive declaration. Neither do I want to big promises. But millions of reasons have compelled me to pay heed to the unattended diaries, which have been accumulating dust over the years. In these diaries are archived some of my bitter, better and brilliant PROFESSIONAL experiences. They have stood a witness to my professional journey, which I commenced on a rainy day in June 1998. The journey continues. Over the years, I have been both a mute and active participant in the eventualities of my professional life. On September 6, 2011 I still feel like a fresher and a learner who is out on the field with dreams in his eyes to make it big. I have no regrets on my wrong decisions and failed endeavors. I have also realized one vital truth about being a professional - NO MATTER HOW BIG YOUR EXPERIENCE IS, YOU WILL HAVE TO BRAVELY FIELD QUESTIONS THAT ARE HURLED FROM ALL THE INEXPERIENCED QUARTERS.

I am fine with it. But over the years, I have been seeing a major increase in this sector of absolute inexperience. Sometimes helplessly and most of the times deliberately, I have allowed myself to remain victimized by innocent but equally stupid observations of the inexperienced. Therefore I wish to make this new beginning.

I don’t intend to hurt sentiments. Neither am I going to reveal any deep secrets from the darkest chambers of my heart and mind. But what I intend to write in the form of my first ever book is a roller coaster ride. Every single day has been special in these last thirteen years. Be it the shortening of my seven lettered name to a four lettered nickname. Be it my first experience with office politics. Or be it the fiasco I got others involved into while mismanaging a celebrity event.

I am not an author by any chance. But I am definitely a creative writer or to be more precise – A Copywriter. Through this book of mine that I intend to write, I want to bring out the finest nuances of what it takes to survive in a competitive world. Over the years, I have seen the world change and also witnessed the paradigm changes the advertising industry has gone through. From reconstructing days of being on payroll to have continued as a consultant and from having freelanced to being a free bird, I wish to make this book a reading delight for my select audience that I might end up drawing.

Being my own book, I haven’t set a deadline for myself to begin writing it or finishing it. But I will see to it that I won’t waste much time in starting to bring this imagination of an idea to life. Though biographical, I have made a decision to present a fictional account of actual events, places, incidents and individuals. The characters are real. The mood of the book is going to be a mix of all – dark, humorous, shocking and sometimes a test of patience. Do I intend to make it a best seller? I am clueless. But I definitely want to get the book published and get some people to read it. I have a promotional plan in place to do so. Do I have the funds, if at all I need to publish it on my own? I believe in my conviction and wish to work hard to make this very dear dream of mine come alive.

This book, I wish to write is born out of a purpose.

This book, I wish to publish is born out of my inner angst.

This book, I wish to make the world read is born out of countless experiences.

My immense desire is to get two very special people to write the foreword to it, who initially were my clients and then became good friends. They have still not cut their links with me. I shall dedicate the book to my mother who is my inspiration, to my childhood friend & his wife and also to my other most vital core of courage.

I don’t want to give up, which might be an insult to the promises I have made.

I don’t want to disown or discontinue, which might be a betrayal to the faith of the dearest ones who have continuously coaxed me to just not imagine, talk or fantasize but write and fight for my own creative right.

I wish to sign off at this point and not wanting to talk too much about my own book. Otherwise the world or even my closest friends would think – The Self Boasting Idiot is at his usual best again. If I am an idiot, I am proud to be an idiot. But don’t we say, “Being an idiot is in vogue and the intelligent goes grazing on hay?”

-vociferous

MY MOM'S SPEECH

MY MOM, THE TEACHER
I, HER SON, HER DISCIPLE, HER FOLLOWER, HER STUDENT, HER DEVOTEE
JUST WANTED TO MAKE THIS TEACHERS DAY OF HER SPECIAL
IT TOOK ME JUST 20 ODD MINUTES
THE BEST I COULD DO WAS
WRITE A SPEECH FOR HER
SHE SPOKE AT HER SCHOOL
WHEN I CAME BACK IN THE EVENING AND ASKED HER, "MOM HOW WAS THE SPEECH?"
SHE SMILED AND REPLIED, "EVERYBODY LIKED IT"
I COULDN'T THINK OF A BETTER GIFT THAN HER SMILE AND MY TRUE DAKSHINA TO HER

The happiness of appreciation stands shared with three of my very best friends: Rohini Nair | Shankari Nandi | Malvika Sengupta

My friend, Malvika commented - (i have read the speech, and i think it would get featured in "the bestest teacher's day speech ever delivered" in your mom's school's annual mag!!!)


THE SPEECH:


"Instead of celebrating my birthday, it would be my proud privilege if 5 September is observed as Teachers’ Day."

A humble request or a desire conveyed to everyone who knew him as Dr. Sarvapalli Radhakrishnan. I therefore consider it my privilege to be given the opportunity of sharing my thoughts on such a precious day of this great human being whose thoughts will remain immortal.

Born on September 5, 1888 to a poor Telugu family that resided at Thiruttani and who lived a life of 86 years that was marked by knowledge, discipline, philosophy, interpretations and acclaims. When he breathed his last on April 17, 1975; our nation suffered an irreversible loss.

“Spiritual life is the genius of India”, he had said once. Being an educationist himself, he was endlessly inspired by this Indian prowess. He therefore went ahead to publish his works, with titles like: The Hindu View of Life | An Idealist View of Life | Eastern Religions and Western Thought | Religion and Society | The Dhammapada | The Principal Upanishads | Recovery of Faith | A Source Book in Indian Philosophy

It was Dr. Sarvapalli Radhakrishnan, who had once expressed - A life of joy and happiness is possible only on the basis of knowledge and science.

Knowledge that we impart through our teaching and knowledge imbibed from books we introduce our students to. In the great visionary’s own words, “Reading a book gives us the habit of solitary reflection and true enjoyment.”

The changes of times are also getting reflected in the Guru-Sheeshya relationship. Today teachers and students have become partners in the journey of knowledge. The new generation is spending more time on the Internet and is aspiring to self-learn everything even before he begins a morning in a school. But does that make us teachers less significant? It is not a question but a thought that finds its true calling in Dr. Radhakrishnan’s discourse “Knowledge gives us power, love gives us fullness”. Other tools of communication might be an add-on to the process of acquiring knowledge. But the love that we shower on our students makes them remember us forever.

So let us come together on this Teacher’s Day to gift our students and ourselves a future of better education, genuine thoughts and honest conduct. Let us dream a tomorrow to be treasured for centuries because we are a democratic nation, so beautifully described by Dr. Sarvapalli Radhakrishnan – “Democracy is a faith in the spiritual possibilities of not a privileged few but of every human being.”

Let us adopt a Human Approach again to educate, to inculcate and to inspire the future of us.

Thank You.

-vociferous

A CONVERSATION

I believe in the philosophy of clear conversations
clear and precise conversations help in defying boundaries.
they help us explore our inner self.
therefore i chose to converse today.
for days i was witnessing the poetry that those eyes were creating.
and the universe that smile was creating.
Finally i chose a language of smile to express what i had perceived.
finally i let my inner self to do all the talking.
i am happy i continued with my mission of making someome smile effortlessly.
hoping that the conversations imbibe some magnificent dimensions.
i sign off today being vociferous again.
i look forward to the emergence of a new phase of smiling conversations.
-vociferous

UNMASKED FACES

In life if I've hated something the most, it has to be pretensions of people who assure to be by your side and are a perfect moron behind the back. They keep stabbing you with a smile and continue being in your good books. The stupid self trusts such people so dearly, it is hard to reveal their true identity. Thankfully through social networking sites, I've unmasked such hypocrites and have remained silent. Not only that, these same bunch of idiots have gone to others and called me a hypocrite. I've just laughed at them but not vociferously. In their complaints, I have discovered loads of insecurity, fear of competition and lack of merit. They have boldly told me that my outer appearance is that of an arrogant, heartless and merciless introvert. Once again, I am not an introvert and I don't have to be outspoken about me being 'The Extrovert'. Not that I've never ever lied in my life. But atleast I've not claimed to be a purist or a saint. When I look around, I find these hypocrites crawling like earthworms. Some claim to be dedicated to their ideals in life. But where are the ideals, I ask? And they reply with a poker face - Well, I am very uncertain about! So, it is time for such jugheads, half-headed idiots to shut their mouth and talk straight to me. There comes a time in life, when we have to say by hook or by crook that I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! But I am still being patient (which is very unlikely of me). Because I know, one day the time shall arrive for that perfect PAYBACK.

- vociferous

DISCLAIMER: My language might be bitter, harsh and extremely offending. But when the mind gets sick of those masked, civilised morons; S#!T happens and I vent out my frustration through my writing.

In life and in DEATH

My Dear Beloved Dead,

So far this has been the most seductive affair. I’ve never found someone so committed, dedicated and addicted to me. Moreover, I believe it has lasted so long because you had started so early with me! It is said, the first time is a moment etched deep in our memory cells. This is a very special moment which can never be erased, forgotten and disagreed upon.

I am really thankful to your friend, who coaxed you hard in making me your own. I still remember it was his fifteenth birthday, a good three months later than you. He started by teasing you that you are not man enough. You were clueless, whether this is really a man thing. Torn apart between ideals instilled in you by your parents and ideals you were getting introduced to in the company of your so called progressive friends. Your mind was at war with your soul.

It was not just your friend alone but also the others present at the party who insisted you need to experiment once. You were immensely shy and reluctant about how to and where to start from, you demanded to be left in solitude. You were therefore pushed into a room, the door locked and in complete darkness you were both excited and exasperated to lose what you had held so precious.

You drew me closer. From top to bottom, your eyes preyed on me. The movement of your tongue was something; I could still not get off my mind. I’ve been a muse to many. But you were the best of all. You held me against you like one of those Hollywood stars who don’t waste a moment to turn romantic at the sight of a revealing fairer sex. I realised the indulgence had begun. Finally I was touched by the warmth of your red as cherry lips. You were no more untouched. Your friends had finally succeeded in making you do the man thing. You put your machismo in full display. Driven by the attitude of having achieved something that was so far forbidden, you threw open the door. You stepped out in style, looked at your friends and brushed your lips against me. I still can’t tell you the sensation that ran through within me. You had made me yours. Whatever happened inside was far more interesting than what you were planning to do outside. Everyone in the party could smell the experience; you have had in that locked room and in solitude, only with me around.

I was enjoying this inseparability. I appreciate the time, you gave me and to be with me. I still remember when your parents had gone out for a wedding somewhere out of the town. They had informed you of their two day stay there. You dialled up your friends and called them over for a night of passion, patriarchy and pleasure. Slowly in the middle of night, you threw open the window and pulled me so close that for a moment, I thought you will gulp me off. Caressed by the blowing breeze and pampered by the cool moonlight, you romanced me incessantly. Not once but you chose to have a good time at least thrice in one night. Your friends were red with envy. It was they, who had introduced me to you and now I had become an integral part of everything you did.

You put me first every time you had to make a decision. Your life had changed. The romance was in full bloom. Your academic performance kept deteriorating and you were completely smitten by me. You had no issues having anyone else in life because you were proud of my presence in your life. For every date that you made so special for me, you even mustered the courage to steal money from your dad’s lockers. But I grew your biggest fan and my love for you grew, when you blatantly lied to your mother while helping me sneak into your bathroom. You had always cherished the memory of having me in your bathroom. Finally that day, you did the unthinkable in the presence of your parents. You were unstoppable. The door was closed. I knew nothing could deter you from staying mine. I did hear the bang on the door. It was your dad. But you were lost in me. You didn’t really care about who was on the door or what the purpose of that bang was.

In your final year of college, the academic reports were not at all impressive. The principal called up your parents to tell them how miserably you had failed in three subjects. It was your principal, whom I still consider my biggest enemy. He never spoke about my presence in your life, while you were in his chamber. That bald headed gentle thwarter only spoke about you and me, when you stepped out of his chamber. I knew something was just not right. Whatever we had between us, seemed to end soon.

On our way back home, when you helped me hide quite intelligently in the car; I heard your father say something like, “I am ashamed of you being my son, my only child, my only pride. I gave you everything that you demanded or desired. And in return, you gave us disgrace. How could you do something so bloody frustrating? Not only have you performed below expectancy but you have ruined your future. You have to bid goodbye or you will have to face dire consequences.” More disheartening was your mother’s comment who said, “You are not the son I had given birth to.”

I was so shaken by these comments; I committed the mistake of making an opinion against you. My views started changing about you. At a time when I should have supported you by being cooperative; I started hatching a revenge plan. Those beautiful moments of togetherness in the past had started pricking me hard. I decided to make a rebel out of you. I am extremely proud of that moment, when some relatives had come to your place. Your father informed you that he is trying to find you a suitable match. From your bedroom, I could see how beautiful this prospective bride of yours was. Your eyes ignited. I started sulking. But I knew you so well by now that I was sure you will do something, which will jeopardise the situation. After shamelessly smiling at your so called fiancée, you rushed back to your bedroom and brought me out. Your father was stunned by my presence. Your mother closed her eyes. And the so called relatives were miffed to see you with me. I loved to break the girl’s heart with stars in her eyes. I was not ready to part you with her. And neither were you able to arrive at terms to sacrifice me for someone else. But that girl had something in her. You started seeing her quite often and left me sulking and craving for you. My feelings of avenging your ignorance of me started getting intense. One night, you arrived late. You were feeling proud that you had joined your father’s business and had a lovely girl by your side to be your wife. You looked at me and maybe for once you might have revived every moment you spent with me.

I am thankful to you that you didn’t abandon me completely. Every alternate night, you were the usual passionate self and performed the best with me. I was enjoying this ambiguity. You were still dedicated to me.

Finally my day of triumph arrived. Without letting me know, how sharply you got your engagement planned and organised. I was amused to see the same group of friends who had made us come together, now congratulating you on your so called animosity against me. Little did they know that I was going to play a major role in your downfall. Rings were exchanged, cake was cut, pleasantries exchanged and near & dear one’s hugged. I couldn’t have imagined a better moment to strike hard than this one. After dinner you bid adieu to your fiancée and her family. How romantic it was to see you murmur in her ears and promise her of making a call in the midnight. After they were gone, you turned to your friends and decided that you will take advantage of me for one last time. This time, it was not going to be in solitude but in public and in their presence. I waited patiently with deep breath. This was the last time; I was going to be with you. This was the last time; I will see you smile. The future that you were envisioning was going to transform into something so dark, it would only make me proud. You took me out of your bedroom and like a beast; bit my back by your sharp teeth. You seemed to be in no mood to have mercy on me. Rather than being gentle, you were harsh, heartless and horrible in pulling me close to you. Once again your lips touched me and before you could feel me pleasantly, I retaliated.

I triumphed by getting to see you fall breathlessly. You were feeling choked. I could hear the eerie noise of a cough that ejected out of your mouth. I was watching with pride the way you were trembling. Your eyeballs rolled and you cried for help. You kept screaming about a severe pain in your throat. You were gasping for breath. You were clueless and so were your friends. You couldn’t speak. You kept coughing. Your phone rang. It was your bloody fiancée. One of your friends answered the call and informed her that you have to be immediately rushed to a hospital. You were in pain. A pain that gave me joy! I wanted to see you die. I silently said to you, “How does it feel you idiot to shatter my dreams of a life of togetherness with you?” You didn’t even have the time to give me an angry stare. At the reception itself, I think the doctor must have made out what the problem was. As you were taken inside, I looked at you; how helplessly you were staring at me. Because this time, I was not with you but with a close friend of yours.

After a turbulent night, the doctor allowed your parents to enter your room. Luckily it was your friend, with whom I managed an entry into your hospital room. In one night, you had turned into my most helpless victim. When you saw me with your friend, you wanted to scream against what I had done to you. But did you even have the voice to do so? It was not me, who wanted to be in your life, but it was you who made me come to your life. I was kicked to see you lose your voice. You will no more be able to talk to that beautiful girl. And after what you have done to me, I will see to it that I keep you alive no more. I was thrilled to hear your doctor say, “He has developed throat cancer and his hope of staying alive is extremely next to impossible.”

Oh yes! Before I depart, let me tell you, “You are not my first victim. Millions of people around the world are my victims. And they will continue to be so, till the time they take a stand against me. But don’t worry; I’ve a strong lobby that will never let me die. So happy dying you bloody smoker!”

With lots of love and sweet betrayal,
Yours forever in life and definitely in death,
Cigarette

On account of NO TOBACCO DAY, I dedicate this blog post to the many victims who fall prey to the ill-habit of smoking cigarettes. Nothing to gain from this habit, cancer is something that is the only definitive cure in helping them get rid of this habit.

-vociferous
(Inspired by a an experimental piece of writing, which I had co-written with my creative buddy)