As the year draws to a close, one thing that still remains permanent is ‘loneliness’. After a month or so on December 31, 2005 as the clock would tick 12.00 a.m., new resolutions would be made not knowing whether they would survive the year ahead.
The year going by has been a learning experience, which did not teach one but many lessons to lead life. Some lived it dangerously. Some lived it gracefully. And some are still cursing the atrocities they inflicted on their inner conscience. So many lives must have entered into a relationship but must have realised they were meaningless. Expectations must have been high. But, they got crushed beneath feet’s of egoistic souls and hungry grabbers.
The main motive behind writing this entirely confusing piece is still not known. But, later as the browsing continues maybe it would seem like something which speaks about expectations. There are some expectations that are sky high. And some knee high. But, they still remain the same. The eyes are hungry to see that expectation translate into reality. So what exactly are expectations? Are they the dreams, we dream of. Are expectations the real motto of life? Or are they just bits and pieces of life needed to be put together? Questions are many, which solicit zero replies.
Expectations have been talked, discussed and researched about. But, no solid documented proof discovers a closer link between what is and what was. While scanning http://www.quoteland.com, quotes would be available on expectations. Still it continues to be confusion.
Married women after having established a relationship with their beloved husband initiate an expectation from within. Then there is that obligatory nine month schedule of relentless waiting and a new body made up of blood and flesh opens its eyes to the big bad world, out there! Bachelors (read males and females) never give up the enthusiasm of expecting. One common thing that haunts their mind is an expectation of a (virgin) partner. If not virgin, then something quite close to virginity. In today’s global versioned society, is that an expectation or just a necessity? The magazine surveys are bogus and misleading. Every fifth man and a second women loses his or her virginity to somebody either known or unknown to him or her. In such a case, where does the expectation fizzle out? Even while packing the bags for a long honeymoon, expectations are sky high. The rear section of the suitcases are stacked with condoms, porn cd’s, love potions and what not. Husbands and wives are quite susceptible to expectations. Husbands create an onbed session in their minds about how they would deflower a probably virgin life partner. The wives create vaginal fantasies about how the first hand experience would be? Definitely they would expect their beloved friends to demand a first hand report on what went wrong and where they went right during their long honeymoon? Don’t you realise the expectation still continues to contaminate, discriminate and overrule decisions about life and towards life.
Someone once anonymously quoted, “Don’t expect anything from anybody”.
Is that possible in a materialistic world? A teacher always looks upon his/ her students to respect her. Parents look upon their kids to take care of them. Goons look upon their accomplices to commit that perfect crime. Bosses look upon their employees for satisfactory results. Even God looks upon his devotees to worship him. So that term ‘look upon’ does come closer to ‘expectation’. But, still we are left thinking as to what exactly are ‘EXPECTATIONS’?
If you have the reply, please comment………………………………..
Monday, November 21, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
THE ANGER WITHIN
I dread God. I dread strangers. But, what I dread most is the anger within me. It is a baseless phenomenon which contaminates my inner conscience. It makes me think about all the wrong things in life. My mom keeps on reminding me of ancient saint, who never uttered a word when in meditation. God and nature inflicted various severities on them during their phase of meditation but they stayed unperturbed.
No, I am not a saint. I am a normal human being with an abnormal perception towards life. A little bit of moderate attention paid to me causes agony to my ego. Sometimes, I can’t realise, how my innermost egoistic attitudes outgrows my regular day behaviour.
When I was born, my grandma applied honey on my tongue and ears so that I can speak sweet and listen sweet. But, that nectar gradually transformed into a bitter fluid, which went on getting dangerous. I started dreading it. That fluid is now all over my body. The inner self is the most affected by it. It has blended with the blood and has adulterated my emotions. There are times, when I fail to shed tears at most grieved moments.
The anger within, like cancer, is killing me from within. This cancer is incurable. Researchers have not yet come across the right formula to immune people like me from this dreaded disease.
With the passage of time, I am growing to be the most dreaded being (just a being – no human being). Please forgive me God for the heinous deeds of mine. I know I have failed to be a good son. My mother loves me but I fail to remain committed to her love. Please purify me of my sins. I want to live a normal life. I want to get rid of this inner dreaded self of mine.
The anger within, threatens me, abuses me and reminds of disturbed past, a confusing present and an unpredictable future. The clutches of self generated anger has clamped me to on a thorny bed and evils of frustration are inflicting millions of atrocities on my mind and body.
I dread it. Anger is evil, I understand. But, I fail to survive without it. The Anger Within is painful. Please forgive me.
No, I am not a saint. I am a normal human being with an abnormal perception towards life. A little bit of moderate attention paid to me causes agony to my ego. Sometimes, I can’t realise, how my innermost egoistic attitudes outgrows my regular day behaviour.
When I was born, my grandma applied honey on my tongue and ears so that I can speak sweet and listen sweet. But, that nectar gradually transformed into a bitter fluid, which went on getting dangerous. I started dreading it. That fluid is now all over my body. The inner self is the most affected by it. It has blended with the blood and has adulterated my emotions. There are times, when I fail to shed tears at most grieved moments.
The anger within, like cancer, is killing me from within. This cancer is incurable. Researchers have not yet come across the right formula to immune people like me from this dreaded disease.
With the passage of time, I am growing to be the most dreaded being (just a being – no human being). Please forgive me God for the heinous deeds of mine. I know I have failed to be a good son. My mother loves me but I fail to remain committed to her love. Please purify me of my sins. I want to live a normal life. I want to get rid of this inner dreaded self of mine.
The anger within, threatens me, abuses me and reminds of disturbed past, a confusing present and an unpredictable future. The clutches of self generated anger has clamped me to on a thorny bed and evils of frustration are inflicting millions of atrocities on my mind and body.
I dread it. Anger is evil, I understand. But, I fail to survive without it. The Anger Within is painful. Please forgive me.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
DIARY DYNAMISM
Modern day lifestyle is a roller coaster ride. Time is like flowing sand, which does not allow you to stand still and think. So how do we develop ourselves? Is there a way out? Either enrol yourself in a month long course at some behavioural training institute or start writing a diary.Daily Diary is Self Development
Maintaining a daily diary and self-development seem to be two distant relatives with nothing in common. But the moment you start writing a diary, you take the first step towards self-development. It polishes your personality, cleanses your perception and boosts your confidence. You start believing in your inner self rather than pleading to be understood by the world.
Writing daily diary is generating discipline. And if written innovatively, can yield rich results. It is a fact that computers have made people lazy and spilling ink on paper has become a thing of the yore. But compel yourself to get active, pick up the pen and start writing a diary.
The next question, which arises, is how does daily diary bring about self-development? Well, it is a multi faceted phenomenon. Great people from the past made it a point to detail important and unimportant events of their lives in their diaries. They have become epics.
Every night, before you retire to your bed, steal some time and sit down to write a diary. Try to note down the day’s events in your diary. This practice makes you think. Your mind starts thinking faster. You compel your mind to think harder by recalling every single incident that took place in the whole day. It is nothing less than aesthetic yoga for your mind.
A diary is your private property. Treat it like the costliest treasure found on a virgin island. Do not part with the facts you tend to pen down with others. Write what you feel, write what you think and enjoy reading them at your own convenience.
Be honest while writing your diary. There is no use lying to your own self. Your diary is your reflection. No one is going to read your diary except some idol minds, which tend to hamper everything that is good around him or her.
Discipline comes naturally while writing a diary. Even if you had been through the busiest schedules of a hectic day, you save some energy to write down your diary. There is no use in accounting three-day events of your life in one day.
People who pen down their goals and aspirations from earlier stages of life emerge as successful icons of future. Some may argue that this is a myth. But trying is the best way to reach a destination called ‘Success’. If you set a goal and write it down in your diary, you will try three times harder to achieve it. No one can stop you from doing so. And if they do so, just flip through the pages of your diary, which will rejuvenate your mind and again inspire you to be unique.
At times, diaries have helped in winning wars and cracking murder mysteries. History stands witness to such events. Personal autobiographies come to life, when people dig into their diaries to search for facts, which might have faded from their memories. And if you are a perfectionist, start maintaining a diary of your official work too and you will discover how you can manage things faster. Diaries can make you realise the changes in your life.
So if you still think that maintaining a diary is a hapless activity, do think again? Make life exciting and enjoy developing your own self.
Monday, September 19, 2005
WHAT
Crimes through newspaper promotions
Almost every newspaper I have come across in the recent times with a classified section. It has existed since past unknown years. Mid Day, Afternoon Despatch and Courier, The Times of India, the recently launched DNA and almost every single newspaper print this information of organised but undisclosed information of a less known crime.
Normally, these advertisements are printed under the category of entertainment, appointments, personals and fun time. Given are several mobile numbers belonging to various renowned networks.
The ads are read as:
Make friends and get entertained 24 hours in company of elite women. Friendship, escort service and picnics organised on weekends. Call up Miss XYZ on 98xxxxxxxx or 98xxxxxxxx for instant membership. Female members can avail of free membership.
This is just the beginning. There are numerous perverts who do call up on these numbers and even decent human beings, who are looking out for some good company. But, what they come across is a thick net of sleazy flesh trade. Once, you entangle yourself in the services provided by them, you are bound to get addicted.
These service providers boast of spreading themselves all around India. On seeking contact, they readily agree to send a representative to your doorstep / office / or at a destination of your choice. There are certain membership fees ranging from Rs. 700 (minimum) to Rs. 20,000. After the payment being made, you are handed over a list of 50 to 100 females with their mobile numbers. They have their own rate cards. For going out on a date, they claim to charge less. For movies, the rates are phenomenal comprising refreshment charges, conveyance and much more. For an entire day outing, they are quite creative. They have good contacts with guest house owners and farm houses.
If you don’t believe this, watch Sansani on Star News, Crime Patrol on Sony TV, Crime Diary on ETV Bangla and other crime based realty shows.
Still, why the well read people are not paying attention to the crime, which is spreading like an irreparable virus? This is why millions of people are taking other people’s privacy for granted. This is a social threat to the entire nation.
The best way to stop it is to prohibit it from getting advertised in the local newspapers or by nabbing them vide their mobile numbers.
The biggest surprising element is the females who come from good family backgrounds. Some do it for fun. Around 30% of them are compelled to do so. In fact, some college going girls do it to earn their pocket money.
If this practice is not stopped a.s.a.p, this cancer will engulf the future generation and it would be impossible for all of us to get rid of this stigma.
Almost every newspaper I have come across in the recent times with a classified section. It has existed since past unknown years. Mid Day, Afternoon Despatch and Courier, The Times of India, the recently launched DNA and almost every single newspaper print this information of organised but undisclosed information of a less known crime.
Normally, these advertisements are printed under the category of entertainment, appointments, personals and fun time. Given are several mobile numbers belonging to various renowned networks.
The ads are read as:
Make friends and get entertained 24 hours in company of elite women. Friendship, escort service and picnics organised on weekends. Call up Miss XYZ on 98xxxxxxxx or 98xxxxxxxx for instant membership. Female members can avail of free membership.
This is just the beginning. There are numerous perverts who do call up on these numbers and even decent human beings, who are looking out for some good company. But, what they come across is a thick net of sleazy flesh trade. Once, you entangle yourself in the services provided by them, you are bound to get addicted.
These service providers boast of spreading themselves all around India. On seeking contact, they readily agree to send a representative to your doorstep / office / or at a destination of your choice. There are certain membership fees ranging from Rs. 700 (minimum) to Rs. 20,000. After the payment being made, you are handed over a list of 50 to 100 females with their mobile numbers. They have their own rate cards. For going out on a date, they claim to charge less. For movies, the rates are phenomenal comprising refreshment charges, conveyance and much more. For an entire day outing, they are quite creative. They have good contacts with guest house owners and farm houses.
If you don’t believe this, watch Sansani on Star News, Crime Patrol on Sony TV, Crime Diary on ETV Bangla and other crime based realty shows.
Still, why the well read people are not paying attention to the crime, which is spreading like an irreparable virus? This is why millions of people are taking other people’s privacy for granted. This is a social threat to the entire nation.
The best way to stop it is to prohibit it from getting advertised in the local newspapers or by nabbing them vide their mobile numbers.
The biggest surprising element is the females who come from good family backgrounds. Some do it for fun. Around 30% of them are compelled to do so. In fact, some college going girls do it to earn their pocket money.
If this practice is not stopped a.s.a.p, this cancer will engulf the future generation and it would be impossible for all of us to get rid of this stigma.
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